In our homeschool this week…
Homeschool was a convenient distraction for me this week.
In my life this week… I am saying "goodbye"
Our heart is for adoption and we have been foster a little fellow since August. Well on Monday the judge ruled he was to be placed with his grandmother.
When you foster/adopt this is always a possibility. It's something to keep in mind, and now it's very real. It is my belief that God is in control and that the has a reason for all things. I do not want to be left to my own foolishness, by not abiding in the King, instead I want to follow his lead. I want to want only the things that he has for me.
Our life has been like a ping pong ball lately first, the little one was set to go to an uncle, then he was staying with us and now he is going to his Grandmother. I meet his grandmother at meeting and she seems normal, I wonder why they didn't place him with her in the first place. Still I know God had things to work out in me, and ugly things. Things that have come to the light and are curled up in the corner growling. I am so grateful that my God is full of grace for me.
"To me, who am less than the least of all the saints, this grace was given, that I should preach among the Gentiles the unsearchable riches of Christ, 9 and to make all see what is the fellowship[a] of the mystery, which from the beginning of the ages has been hidden in God who created all things through Jesus Christ;[b] 10 to the intent that now the manifold wisdom of God might be made known by the church to the principalities and powers in the heavenlyplaces," Ephesians 3:8-10
It has been a rough ride for me, for us. We are rejoicing for this family, this is a good thing. A family has been reunited, even though our family is not.
Well, this week is not complete as I write this post so I do not know how I will feel. I am normally very reserved about everything until it actually happens. It's when I am in the middle of the situation that my emotions arise. I have not yet shed a tear but I have packed up most of stuff into a diaper box. I always do what needs to be done.
For now I will look long into his big eyes. Admire his little chubby legs that were so skinny. His little chubby hands that were so small. I'll watch him toddle, he's almost walking well you know. Yet, now he going to be toddling away from us.
I really feel poorly for my kiddos and I wonder if we as a family will go through this again, if the Lord has this for our family again. How will we explain this to the two year old twins, and protect their security. This reminds me of the importance of the children's salvation because our security is truly in Christ!
Frankly, I am afraid of the pain that has not yet arrived and that will flood through my body as I watch him drive away.
I’m praying for…
I am thankful for...
Christmas coming because there is so much to distract me during this busy season.
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